Well, I'm back with a new outlook!!

So, I was pretty down last time I posted anything, lol. I probably made you all roll your eyes in annoyance at my 'pity-me' show. Well, that is over and has been for a while!

I've moved on. I still don't have a job and my financial situation is worse than the last time I posted, but that is trivial in comparison to what I've come to learn. I made the concious and not so concious decision to be happy. I was such a pessimist when I was with my ex. I irritated myself at that time and I don't see how ex can stand being so down constantly! Being away from the negativity he brought has shown me that there is a bright side to this life. There is something to hope for. There is something to work for and a reason to dream. My current motto is "Things will work out eventually. I just have to wait for eventually to get here." and I've decided that I don't need to be the portrait of grief and despair. I can choose to not think about a problem if the solution is out of my hands at the moment, and that is what I'm doing. If you see me on the streets you wouldn't know that I'm dealing with anything tough at the moment because I've chosen happiness! Now, don't get me wrong, I am not totally ignoring my problems. They are obviously still there, alive and well just as my heart is beating in my chest. However, it makes me miserable to dwell on them when I am unable to take care of them. Who wants to make themselves miserable? Not me. So, I refuse to think about it until I can do something about it. When the solution is within my reach it isn't so depressing, thus sparing me the dull ache I felt before.

So, this is a new me. Happy, optimistic and annoyingly cheerful!!

Merry Christmas!